...and also tired
So the new job is going well. I am getting a lot of actually impactful work done day to day.
But it's draining. I'm the sort of person who burns endlessly more calories thinking than I do with manual tasks, I'm a lapsed athlete after all, but thankfully they provide us with snacks, caffeine and diversions.
Tomorrow is another graphic tee Friday. I will be enjoying the theme of Banana because I have to note that this shit is, in fact, bananas and I have a shirt that expresses that sentiment (I'm hoping they'll figure out how much I like yellow at some point. it's RIGHT BEHIND mint for favorite color)
My birthday's soon. I'm entering the final year of my 30s and I still don't feel like I know what I'm doing. Would love to hear from anyone who does feel like they know what they're doing when they achieved that. I perpetually feel confused and out of sorts. Is it the neurodivergence? Probably. But it could also just be that this world is built inhospitably in general, it's a bit harsh you know?
I'm feeling cheerful but drained. I'm not sure how I emotionally feel about that. I do know that my mental wellbeing is much more respected at this place because I can't work if it is bad.
I hope they keep me. Just on contract for now. Like everyone but that feeling may not be mutual. I think a few people find me annoying already. Hopefully I settle into a quiet sort of not mattering at some point.
We were a bit shorthanded today and I FELT it. Made me question how they worked like this before? It's insane how much more stuff to do there was. Felt a bit endless. Some of it is still on my desk for the morning and I'm tired just thinking about it. But we press on. And we hope. And we look forward to concerts of our favorite indie popstars with our cousin for our birthday. Got a standard ticket to Zolita's show. I enjoyed the VIP experience last time but I don't need it like before. Hope she's on time this time...she was like two hours late last time. I think there was a wardrobe malfunction?
Anyway I won't be back for a while I'm very busy and need a lot of sleep I'm not getting.
OH! I'm on Final Fantasy XIV if anyone is keen to find me somewhere more sociable. Ping me on Bluesky for the deets or my Discord so we can meet up. :)